(1009130433-0451,1609131928-1946)
Emotionally
I ran
in the same
circle for years
over and
over again.
Constantly
I was battling
the same
problems.
Constantly
I had the same worries
and
constantly
I whined
and complained
about the
load I had to carry.
I wanted to
enjoy
my life as
well,
but that
did not seem to be
granted to
me.
By now I
have turned old
but I have
not learned
any additional
wisdom.
I did not
see
that God
had wanted to show me
a way out
of my emotional circle
all along
because in
my mind
he had
nothing to say
in my life.
I was angry
with him
and instead
of accepting his advice
and
searching in his word
for answers
to my condition
he only got
to feel my anger.
But with my
own wisdom alone
I did not
find the way
out of my
negative circle.
I did not
get the idea
that I had
to calm down
and be
quiet
before I
could hear
his soft
and quiet voice
in my
heart.
I did not
know
that the
whining and complaining,
the moaning
and grumbling
blocked my
view
and because
of that
I could not
find the right way.
I did not
think
that God’s
emotional healing
of my heart
starts
small and almost unnoticeable
and I had
to nurture that growth
like a
fragile plant.
All I ever
wanted to experience from him
was a big
miracle.
I did not realize
that on my
path out of my circle
I will
encounter obstacles
that I
could only overcome with God’s help.
I had
imagined that God’s paths
always had
to be easy.
Oh what
wrong ideas did I have,
what a
straight path had to look like.
I wanted to
have it easy.
I did not
want to have to fight
with my
negative emotions
and I
wanted to experience luck
in the midst
of my
emotional
laziness
and
impulsivity.
I did not
want to change myself.
But that is
not how it worked
and as long
as I kept that attitude
I kept on
turning in the same circle.
Theme: How I get out of my emotional circle
No comments:
Post a Comment