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For a long
time
I had been
imprisoned
in my own
self-pity.
My everyday
life
consisted
of whining
and
complaining.
For years
envy ate me up
and
jealousy about what others had
and how
they were doing
influenced
my days.
I never
stopped asking WHY.
Why do I
always have such a hard time,
why can’t I
do this and that?
Why do I
have to suffer so much?
Why, why,
why.
I began to
be angry with God
because I
made him responsible
for my
misery
and I expected
only good days
from him.
That Jesus
himself
didn’t only
have good days
I had
completely forgotten.
My
self-pity grew and grew
and with
all the negative thoughts
there was
no more space in my head
for
positive ones.
Oh how
could I have been so dumb
for such a
long time and believed
that my
self-pity is my best friend
and that
life is best
when I
whine and complain.
By doing
that
I fell for
Satan’s lies
and got
stuck in them.
Only after
I declared war
and
countered him with God’s words
did a light
go on in me.
Today I am
prepared
to take
discomfort upon me
because now
I have learned
that the
biggest lessons
God has for
me
usually
come along with discomfort.
Now I know
that God
walks an
individual path
with
everyone.
I do not
need to be envious or jealous
towards the
other person
because his
time of difficulties will also come
at some
point.
Now I can
experience
that God is
in control
during my
bad days too,
and I have
long ago said good bye
to the
self-pity
that had
held me imprisoned
for such a
long time.
Theme: Self-pity only brings damage
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