Sunday, February 22, 2015

Mountains of worry - How you can leave mountains of worry behind you


Mountains of worry
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I have built
mountains of worry,
one higher than the next.

As soon as something is
not foreseeable
or not easy
my objection comes:
BUT ...

By now I feel as if I would stand
in a deep ravine
surrounded by dark, high
mountains without a path.

I do not know the way any longer.
I can’t see the way out.
With all the worries
I cannot think good thoughts any longer.

With all my “BUT”s
I was unwilling to try new things
and take steps forward.

I believed that I could
and had to manage
everything by myself
and I totally forgot
that my Creator wants to
lead and guide me.

I forgot that he will lead me
out of the dark valleys
and has promised me times
where I can rest in a “green pasture“.

Once I arrived in the valley
I did not hold onto his hand.
Instead I was angry
and threw it to the side
and accused him of
why he allowed such a life
for me.

This way
I got lost in my own valley
and with all the darkness
and faintheartedness
I was not able to see
the way out any longer.

My Creator does not force me
to accept his guidance
and to trust him,
but I can see now
where my own rebellion lead me.

For years I only walked in a circle.
With all the “BUT”s
I could not recognize
the small exit
that often was full of stones.

And because I did not get my own way
I became more and more dissatisfied.
Worries grew into mountains
in front of me,
the anger grew
and the inner darkness
and hopelessness just multiplied.

All because I had lost track
of my Creator,
only focused on worldly matters,
and did not look upwards any longer.

O how could I be so dumb
and turn down his hand
in the essential times of my life!

Did he not instruct me
to cast my worries upon him
and trust him with my whole heart?
But I did just the opposite.
In good times I was too busy
and in bad times too angry
to really pay attention to him.

So now I do not need to be surprised
why my mountains of worry only grow
and threaten to burst in.


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