Green Heart: Unfaithful - Where unfaithfulness towards God leads me

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Unfaithful - Where unfaithfulness towards God leads me

Unfaithful

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I have been unfaithful toward you

and have not obeyed your guidelines.

I thought I knew better,

and rebelled against you

and went my own way.

Then I went about

walking the wrong way

and started to compromise

more and more.

But then I moved even further

away from you.

I noticed increasingly

that my heart got colder

and my dissatisfaction bigger.

Something was not right any longer.

The joy that I once knew

and the inner peace

that I once had

were lost.

Emptiness grew in me

and the feeling of being abandoned.

I knew something was not right.

No money in the world

and no pleasure

could bring back

the condition I was longing for

so badly.

I had pushed you to the side

and refused to believe in your existence.

But my conscience started to scream.

In lonely times it judged me guilty

and became more and more restless.

However I even put off this feeling

and made sure there was

no more silence in my life

where I could recognize

your still and quiet voice.

Instead of returning to you,

I turned my back to you

more and more.

But to be honest

I was not at all feeling good

by doing this.

But I only got

concerned about honesty

in the rare time when I took

an inventory of my life.

I have downright ignored

your offer of forgiveness

and total restoration of my soul

for many years.

I did not feel your love any longer.

Not because it was not there

but because I had distanced

myself from it.

But the time came

when I stood with my back

against the wall

with my life,

and I did not know what to do any more.

I had distanced myself

from you so far

that I had true feelings of guilt

and I was ashamed

to return to you.

However by now

I was a broken man

who knew all too well

that I had made everything wrong

in my life

because I did not listen to you.

Only after I had reached

the end of myself

did I begin

to search for you again.

God forgive me,

that I have wasted so much time

and hurt so many people.

Let me discover you all anew.

I need you and your healing love.

Theme: Where unfaithfulness towards God leads me

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Logo meaning

When choosing a name and a logo for the poetry there were several things I considered:

Shape:

I have chosen the heart for the poetry touches the heart. It reaches deep within the soul of a person and is intended to bring about thoughts that one usually does not think about in the busyness of every day life. The shape of the heart is purposely uneven. It means that the poetry is there for the big and the small, the rich and the poor, the educated and the uneducated, the strong and the weak. It is my desire to reach out and bring hope to everyone who recognizes that deep within his heart there is an imbalance.

Face:

The heart has a face for a person who has recognized his own misconduct and has cleaned it up, can come to rest within him, and his heart can smile again. No matter how bad the outside circumstances are there can be inner peace and joy that will radiate to the outside. It puts a smile on the heart when a person has learned to no longer be controlled by his own negative emotions.

Color:

The color green represents hope. It is also a color where your soul can come to rest. Green is the color for growth of plants. Growth takes time; some things grow slower, others faster. A person who recognizes the need for a change enters into a process that takes time and that is why this heart is white at the bottom and slowly turns green.

General information about the poetry

Coming alongside people who are dissatisfied with their life and struggling with it as well as current events in the media often makes me think and gives me reason to ponder upon. After I have been able to put myself into a specific situation, not only with my intellect but with my feelings as well, I often come up with poems and short stories. The current situation may only be the initiating thought for something new to write and the story may go a different direction. By now I have learned I better put those thoughts to paper immediately otherwise I am no longer able to write about it at a later time. After I have written down a poem I make no or only minimal changes to it.

In my literature I speak about situations that are true in general and that can be understood no matter what the age or culture. They reach deep within the human soul because they bring up wrongs that repeat themselves over the generations in principle. I realized very soon that poems, which were written about certain situations, were also enjoyed by other people who had nothing to do with that situation. I’m not afraid to exaggerate and clearly write about things that many would like to sweep under the rug. Some things may be infuriating, but the pain that could be caused by cleaning up an old wound may be worthwhile after all.

Many readers tell me that they enjoy reading my literature over and over again because when they are in a different mood they notice that they discover all new aspects in it.

The first poems were stored away for years. I finally decided to let some individuals read them and they have all motivated me to publish and sell them. I have since then decided to publish them myself and to just give them away. Upon special requests and for special occasions different booklets have been made. Within a short period of time my literature was taken to many different countries around the globe. At that point my writings had to be passed on by someone to someone else or be found by chance to know about it. In June of 2012 I started to make some of my literature available on this blog. My poetry soon found their use in schools, hotels, churches, doctor offices, counseling centers, prisons, and many other places. Beggars and lawyers have read them alike, from simple people all the way to politicians. I wish for every reader to make the best of it.

Please do respect the fact that I publish anonymous for otherwise I would not be able to authentically do what I am currently doing: Being there for the average human being who has found himself in great distress. It is also important to me to point to our loving heavenly father by what I write and I do not want readers to get the idea to admire me for I am merely a sign pointing in the right direction. Give God the credit for what is happening and not me as an author please. Many blessings and healing for all those who take to heart what they have been reading.

Publishing

There have been several requests for publications in different countries made already. I am very happy about that for I think the content of my literature is valuable enough for many people. As a publisher please be aware that there are no solely publishing rights to individual publishers in a certain country. When using my material I would ask for notification as to what gets published when it gets published and where it gets published. For notification it is sufficient to use the comment button available at the bottom of any of my poems. When publishing please put Green Heart as a source with the BlogSpot address. Also please contact Green Heart for more literature guidelines.