Green Heart: Lying and cheating - Becoming aware of one’s situation and finding help

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Lying and cheating - Becoming aware of one’s situation and finding help

Lying and cheating

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I have built my life

upon lying and cheating

and had hoped to have

some advantage by it.

But in reality

I have destroyed much with it.

What good is all the money and power

when I am not really happy?

My meanness

causes all around me

to hate me.

The money that I end up spending

does not really make me happy.

I have not found inner peace

in a long time.

I am driven by restlessness

and cannot stand my own condition

any longer.

I can’t find peace.

Oh, what a life did I build for myself?

Where does that lead me to?

Everything is just cheating and appearance!

On the outside I playact

to be the strong man

but internally I am eaten up

by unhappiness and dissatisfaction.

I have scourged my conscience

and locked it up

into the prison of my life.

But in quiet moments

when I am all by myself

I can still hear it cry out.

How much longer

do I want to continue to live like that?

With my lies I am deluding myself.

Instead I get myself

in more and more trouble.

I’m on the run my whole life long

without knowing the direction anymore.

I cannot numb myself long term.

The same chaos breaks through

over and over again.

Everywhere I look

my life begins to stink and rot.

Every time when I want to

start over again

I take along my old thoughts and actions

and soon afterwards

I end up doing the same thing again.

God YOU said

that YOU can make

a new person out of us.

Can you do that with me too?

God YOU said

that you died for the sins of all man.

Can you take mine from me?

God YOU came in Jesus

to model for us some other life.

Can YOU show me

how to follow you today?

I am very aware of my guilt.

To no human did I ever admit

my own hopelessness.

The chaos that I created

can only be cleaned up by YOU and me.

In all quietness

I want to get to know YOU.

I have to first of all

sort out my own life,

and for that

I cannot have another person around me

who tells me what to do

because he doesn’t know me

as well as YOU.

Despite I do not want to risk

their contempt and judgment of me.

YOU know me and the chaos I created,

my cheating and lying

upon which I have build my own world

all too well.

But especially in my situation

you have words of hope and love for me.

Thank you that despite all I did

YOU did not give up on me.

Help me to discover YOU

and to get to know you better

so that my life can become real.

Theme: Becoming aware of one’s situation and finding help

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Logo meaning

When choosing a name and a logo for the poetry there were several things I considered:

Shape:

I have chosen the heart for the poetry touches the heart. It reaches deep within the soul of a person and is intended to bring about thoughts that one usually does not think about in the busyness of every day life. The shape of the heart is purposely uneven. It means that the poetry is there for the big and the small, the rich and the poor, the educated and the uneducated, the strong and the weak. It is my desire to reach out and bring hope to everyone who recognizes that deep within his heart there is an imbalance.

Face:

The heart has a face for a person who has recognized his own misconduct and has cleaned it up, can come to rest within him, and his heart can smile again. No matter how bad the outside circumstances are there can be inner peace and joy that will radiate to the outside. It puts a smile on the heart when a person has learned to no longer be controlled by his own negative emotions.

Color:

The color green represents hope. It is also a color where your soul can come to rest. Green is the color for growth of plants. Growth takes time; some things grow slower, others faster. A person who recognizes the need for a change enters into a process that takes time and that is why this heart is white at the bottom and slowly turns green.

General information about the poetry

Coming alongside people who are dissatisfied with their life and struggling with it as well as current events in the media often makes me think and gives me reason to ponder upon. After I have been able to put myself into a specific situation, not only with my intellect but with my feelings as well, I often come up with poems and short stories. The current situation may only be the initiating thought for something new to write and the story may go a different direction. By now I have learned I better put those thoughts to paper immediately otherwise I am no longer able to write about it at a later time. After I have written down a poem I make no or only minimal changes to it.

In my literature I speak about situations that are true in general and that can be understood no matter what the age or culture. They reach deep within the human soul because they bring up wrongs that repeat themselves over the generations in principle. I realized very soon that poems, which were written about certain situations, were also enjoyed by other people who had nothing to do with that situation. I’m not afraid to exaggerate and clearly write about things that many would like to sweep under the rug. Some things may be infuriating, but the pain that could be caused by cleaning up an old wound may be worthwhile after all.

Many readers tell me that they enjoy reading my literature over and over again because when they are in a different mood they notice that they discover all new aspects in it.

The first poems were stored away for years. I finally decided to let some individuals read them and they have all motivated me to publish and sell them. I have since then decided to publish them myself and to just give them away. Upon special requests and for special occasions different booklets have been made. Within a short period of time my literature was taken to many different countries around the globe. At that point my writings had to be passed on by someone to someone else or be found by chance to know about it. In June of 2012 I started to make some of my literature available on this blog. My poetry soon found their use in schools, hotels, churches, doctor offices, counseling centers, prisons, and many other places. Beggars and lawyers have read them alike, from simple people all the way to politicians. I wish for every reader to make the best of it.

Please do respect the fact that I publish anonymous for otherwise I would not be able to authentically do what I am currently doing: Being there for the average human being who has found himself in great distress. It is also important to me to point to our loving heavenly father by what I write and I do not want readers to get the idea to admire me for I am merely a sign pointing in the right direction. Give God the credit for what is happening and not me as an author please. Many blessings and healing for all those who take to heart what they have been reading.

Publishing

There have been several requests for publications in different countries made already. I am very happy about that for I think the content of my literature is valuable enough for many people. As a publisher please be aware that there are no solely publishing rights to individual publishers in a certain country. When using my material I would ask for notification as to what gets published when it gets published and where it gets published. For notification it is sufficient to use the comment button available at the bottom of any of my poems. When publishing please put Green Heart as a source with the BlogSpot address. Also please contact Green Heart for more literature guidelines.