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Piece by piece
I have
obstructed
my own
access
to your
love.
More and
more
I only had
in my mind
what could
be seen, felt
and tasted.
Material
things
as well as
power and prestige
became
bigger priorities.
Soon I
noticed
that they
left me
unfulfilled
as well.
But the
world
did not
offer anything else.
I had
almost forgotten
that I was
able to look
beyond the
earthly things.
My own
mistakes
obstructed
my access
to your
love.
It did not occur
to me any longer
that you
are gracious with me.
I was so
busy with
trying to
catch the luck and love
this world
had to offer,
that I completely
forgot you
as being
the author of love.
My
disobedience towards you,
my worldly
shortsightedness,
my self-centered
egotism,
and my
stubbornness
were like
the walls
in my own
prison.
I had
always been searching
for real
and lasting love.
Deep down in
my heart
I knew that
it existed,
but by now
I no longer
had any idea
how I could
get ahold of it.
With all my
luxury
I was
imprisoned with unhappiness
and bound
to worries and fear.
Deep in me
I knew the
answer,
but all
that I heard
and
believed
in the last
few years
has taught
me
that you
are not important
and are not
a help to start out with.
I believed
this false doctrine,
and that
was
like the
key
that kept
my prison doors locked.
I was so
deeply stuck
in my own
faults
that I was
no longer receptive
to your
love,
and even
got angry
every time
someone mentioned
your name.
Oh how
could I be so dumb
and allowed
myself to be
led astray
when I know
deep down
that only
you
give the
love
that I had
been longing for
the whole
time!!!
Lord help
me
to tear
down the trash
with which
I have obstructed
the access
to your love.
Help me
to align
myself with you again.
Help me,
so that I
can
experience
your love
all new
again.
Theme: What keeps me from experiencing true love
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