Rage - Raging against the Lord only brings us more difficulties

Rage

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Lord, I was raging against you,

but for a long time

I did not want to admit it.

I was angry at you

for what has happened to me,

but I was hiding my anger

behind all kinds of masks.

Now I have many problems:

My psyche has taken me

on a rollercoaster ride,

my health is going crazy,

all of my reactions are off,

and I no longer find any rest

when I sleep.

All because I did not want

to look at the root causes

and was raging against you.

I could not recognize

that you wanted to guide me

through all difficult times,

and in the midst of the storm

I did not hold onto your hand

but instead was distracted

by the tossing waves. 

I was completely consumed

by the negativeness of my surroundings,

and was upset and angry for I have neglected to look up to you.

Oh Lord help me

to never forget you and your kindness

in the midst of the storm.

Help me to believe in your nature even when my life is upside down.

Help me to remain faithful to you

when I have to go through difficulties

and injustice.

Help me to cling to you

especially in difficult times

and to look to you

instead of indulging in rage

against you.

I had lost my perspective

and had made my own life more difficult than it already was.

While I was raging against you

I had caused myself

many more difficulties.

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