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My
condition was
pathetic
when Jesus
found me.
I have neglected
to do so
much
of what is
good and right
and now I
am stuck
in a dead
end street.
My own ego
did not
only rule
but raged
within me.
Chaos of different degrees
ruled in
all areas
of my life
but on the
outside
I kept a
good appearance
and acted
as if everything is OK.
But that did not work
because
what is in the heart
comes out
of the mouth.
Actually everyone knew
that I was
at my wits end
but I still
did not allow
any help.
I built up a high wall
around the
raging chaos
within me
and locked
the gate to it.
How can there be
so much
disorder
all at
once?
Where did I maneuver
myself to?
What came of me?
Why was
the
principle of lust
my utmost command?
It only got
me
into a lot
of trouble!
When I met Jesus
and started
to feel
his warmth
and love
I was a big
mess inside.
But now I
can feel
that he
intervenes.
His love for me
is more
then I have gotten
from
anyone.
Without thinking twice
I gave
Jesus the key
to my
walled up heart
and allowed
him access
to my chaos.
For a long time
I did not
believe
that he can
restore
all areas
of my life
and when I
let him govern
I feel best
about myself.
I thought I was
a hopeless
case,
one that
just barely survived.
But no,
Jesus
returns
my joy in
life.
He gives me
tasks
and the joy
to
accomplish them.
He cleans up
my mess
and I can
bring
my raging ego
to him.
Only he is
strong enough
to handle
it properly.
Through his life
and his
words
he showed
me so much.
Now my life gets meaning,
joy
returns,
and peace
moves in.
I don’t have to be
good enough
for him to
accept me.
He told me
that I can
just lay
all my
pathetic ways
at his
feet.
Now Jesus
cleans me
up.
I can say
goodbye
to
destructive and wrong
thought
patterns
piece by
piece.
He exchanges
my pathetic
life
with real
joy
and gives
me purpose.
I have to truly say
that I am
excited
about all
the changes
within me.
Theme: From total chaos inside to restoration
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